The only thing I enjoy the most is writing. Writing is the only way that expresses how I feel. The only thing I trust is a paper and a pencil and then words just come out.
Why do people always promise forever when life is temporary? Why do people promise with forever when they just leave? Why do people do this? Isn't it rude; to promise someone you'll spend your whole life with and suddenly a few seconds are enough. To promise someone that you'll love and treasure them forever and suddenly you're bored of them. To promise someone that everything will be okay when you're the reason why "everything" happened. To promise someone that you'll never gonna hurt them and you're the reason why they're broken.Why? Don't promise with "forever" when you don't know how to value you words.
You know that feeling when you feel worthless, hopeless, sad, sick, tired, empty, and just everything at once that makes you just break down. Yea, it sucks. That feeling when you're fed up from life and from everyone cause no one understands anything. You know that feeling when you're broken and it just hurts so much.. mentally and physically, and you can't do anything about it. so you just cry hoping it would help. but it doesn't. that feeling when you try to cheer everyone up other than yourself. When you're trying to be everyone's anchor and you just keep sinking and no one's noticing. So you just give up and letting go. That feeling when you wish anyone could save you. When you just want to be simple and happy. but you're still hoping, you're still wishing, staying strong, and fighting with tears in your eyes because you know it won't help. I'm tired of being strong. I've tried so much to be strong but its worthless.And that feeling...
Love is just an illusion. Someone just comes into you life and makes you feel special and loved. Fills up the pieces that no one has managed to fill. Promises never to leave like how everyone did. Fixes your broken heart and fills it with faith, hope and love. Shows you what forever is and you fall for it. And you fall for everything. All that effort you've made of loving and being committed to someone is gone in seconds. It's just a trap which we fall into every time and we never learn from it. Thing is it come's dressed differently. And that's how we keep falling for it. Every time. Yes we'll keep on falling until another person walks in picking us up and doing that shit all over again. And no matter how that person proves to you that they're unlike everyone.. Ironically, they end up being alike everyone. And that's why I lost hope in love and people.
Writing takes you to another world; welcome to my world :)
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